I don't know if many of you mamas experienced "pregnancy brain" but whatever they say about it, I'm finding it must be true. I don't remember being so absent minded during my first pregnancy, but lately, this one has got me in a fog. I'm suffering from short term memory loss. If I don't do something or say something when I think about it, you might as well forget about it getting done. It's bad.
Also on a wierd note I threw up the other night randomly. It happened once when I was pregnant with Laila, both times when I laid down to go to sleep. It was quick and painless and felt fine right after. Just wierd. And I say wierd because I don't get morning sickness or nauseous during the first trimester (which I am tremedously thankful for!!)
I've been feeling baby kick alot. Cute little kicks, you can tell its still so small. I had some crazy back/kidney spasms last night, so I was kind of restless all night thinking the worst. You know how our minds just run away from us?! So I lay awake off and on last night thinking I need to feel the baby kick, just so I know everything is ok. That's like your way of just knowing right? At least it is for me. Anyway, no moving. I poke I turn, nothing. So that doesn't help me get to sleep. And then I start actually using my brain and remember that I NEVER feel the baby kick at night or when I'm asleep, so why should tonight be any different. I pray anyway, just that everything is ok and not even 5 minutes later, the little sucker wakes up and is going to town... ahhh peace of mind.
This got me thinking.... and alittle hopeful that maybe this child will be as good a sleeper as Laila has always been. When I was pregnant with her, I never felt her kick during the night or when I was asleep. She never "woke me up" from kicking, as I've often heard alot of mamas say. Laila and this baby seem to be more active during the day, which is fine by me. So, who knows, maybe its a sign of what's to come. If not that's ok too, because I remind myself that this is a totally new child, a different child, who may be nothing like its big sister. Laila kind of spoiled us in the fact that she really has been such an easy baby/toddler. Sleeping 12 to 13 hours through the night at 3 months, great nurser, great eater... I could go on. But I never want to negatively compare the two. Comparisons are inevitable, but I want to try very hard to make sure they are of the positive sort. I breaks my heart to hear another parent say why can't you be like so and so or your brother or your cousin. I could never say that and I pray I never will. I think about growing up with 2 other sisters and how did my parents do it? How did they make us all feel equally special, equally the most important. I think we could all say we never ever felt at competition with each other. That's what I pray for my children. To be each others friends, play mates, and feel like they are loved for who they are, no matter what.
So this is a little long, but just thoughts and prayers on my mind this morning.
We will find out on Thursday April 25, 2013 if Laila will be getting a brother or a sister! I'm very excited and I feel like these first 18 weeks has flown by. I have said this many times already when people ask me what I'm hoping for and everytime I say, "I'm just glad I'm not the one who gets to choose." God already knows this child and has hand picked them just for us, for our family. I have my little girl, so I'm ok with a boy or girl. D.J. really wants a boy, of course as I think every guy does. I get it though. Its so neat to have a "mini me". He'll be excited either way. D.J. loves his little girl, and it would be cool for Laila to have a sister, especially since I couldn't imagine not having my sisters, but that's why I say, I'm glad I don't have to pick.
18 week belly shot
At 18 weeks I'm feeling more pregnant. I feel like the belly has really popped in the last 2 weeks. I can no longer button my pants if I wanted to. I need to go buy some new maternity pants. I can still wear my normal slacks for work, I just do the little hair tie around the button trick to keep my pants up. I never did by the belly band, and by the time I get around to buying one, I'll be wearing my materity pants, so ah well.
I've been craving about the same types of foods. I'm noticing I am getting hungier in the middle of the night but haven't had the energy to actually get up and eat. I get up to go to the bathroom about 3 times a night. And my headaches have gotten better as long as I drink enough water. Doctor said to drink 120 oz! A day! That's alot! Maybe that's why my kidneys have been freaking out. I don't know. I'll have to tell her about this at my next check up.
